If I’d had some self-compassion during the time, i possibly could have recalled that none of the is my fault. Baby gay me personally had convinced myself, therefore sweetly, that adopting my queerness would propel me personally into some synchronous world where figures are simply systems. Where there’s no moral value assigned to quantities of flesh, where thinness is not constantly a virtue. Where we all just love and fuck one another and bask inside our liberation.

But that’s not the globe we reside in. The exact same beauty norms which had dragged me personally via a lifetime of self-esteem yo-yoing, and disordered consuming, and pity no body deserves followed me out of the wardrobe.

I happened to be taught to value thinness the way that is same ended up being taught to value straightness. (more…)